Recovering from Illness

Mother and Daughter by the Sickbed of a Child by Diederik Franciscus Jamin

The above sketch from Amsterdam’s Rijks Museum pretty much describes how I spent most of this week. Something I ate on Tuesday violently disagreed with me, so in addition to the usual messy food poisoning symptoms, I was totally prostrated. Picture Martine at my side feeding me endless glasses of water to avoid dehydration along with hydrocortisone to make up for my body’s inability to produce adrenaline. Without the hydrocortisone, I was likely to die.

To avoid concentrating on the messy details, I would like to present a poem by Robert Louis Stevenson I remember from when I was a boy of ten sleeping in my parents’ bed while I was sick and they were at work. Half the time, my great-grandmother was around to feed me. It presents a very vivid picture of illness seen from the point of view of a child.

The Land of Counterpane

When I was sick and lay a-bed,
I had two pillows at my head,
And all my toys beside me lay,
To keep me happy all the day.

And sometimes for an hour or so
I watched my leaden soldiers go,
With different uniforms and drills,
Among the bed-clothes, through the hills;

And sometimes sent my ships in fleets
All up and down among the sheets;
Or brought my trees and houses out,
And planted cities all about.

I was the giant great and still
That sits upon the pillow-hill,
And sees before him, dale and plain,
The pleasant land of counterpane.

A Moment of Adrenal Insufficiency

Lethargy Struck Yesterday

It happened a little differently yesterday. After breakfast, I started feeling extremely lethargic. Instead of doing anything, I just sat on the couch staring at the wall … at the television which was off … at my feet. At one point, when Martine came into the room, I told her I was suffering another adrenal episode, meaning that I was not getting any adrenaline.

Usually when that happens, my digestive system goes out of whack with explosive vomiting and diarrhea. Followed by blacking out. Not this time. Fortunately.

I knew what to do. I was able to stand up and walk to the kitchen, where my 10 mg Hydrocortisone HCL pills were stored. I took three tabs with cold water and returned to the living room couch.

After several hours of s-l-o-w-l-y diminishing lethargy, I got all better. But I took it slowly. There’s no way of rushing the cure.

Because I have no pituitary gland, there are times when my body is just not getting the adreno-cortico-tropic hormone (ACTH) it needs. In the past, I was usually admitted to the emergency room when this happened, and I had to hang out there for several days while the cardiologists who usually run the ER tried to puzzle out what I had and how it affected their specialty. (It doesn’t really.)

This morning I felt good so I went downtown and attended the Thursday Mindful Meditation session at the Central Library. After, I went across the street and had a big bowl of pho at the Downtown LA Pho Restaurant. I was back to normal.